Last Friday I went in for my post-op sonohysterogram to see how much of the septum was actually left. Dr. Hammoud, my normal Dr., was out so Dr. Johnstone performed my sono. After the test she said that there was probably about 1-1 ½ cm left and that I may need more surgery. This was like a big kick to the gut because although the surgery was painful, it was nothing in comparison to the excruciating 45 day wait I had just endured. I left the appointment broken... I honestly didn’t know if I could emotionally withstand another surgery and the painful wait that accompanies it. When you are doing all you can to bring a baby into your family and then have to stop the entire process, the days feel like months and your heart breaks a little more each day with every pregnant women you see and every baby you hear.
Since I had done my 6th round of clomid this month, I had an ultrasound yesterday to see where my follicles were so we could see when we could do IUI. Dr. Hammoud was back in the office so I asked his opinion about having more surgery and when he looked further, he said the septum was only about .5 cm longer than the entire depth of my uterus. He thinks that if they removed any more I could have a difficult time carrying a baby to term or the uterus could tear during labor so he didn’t believe I needed more surgery and that we should proceed with IUI. This was FANTASTIC news to hear and I felt a big weight lift off my heart at the thought that we could conceive baby Ricci this week. After looking at my follicles, he found that Friday would be the optimal day to do IUI so I will be giving myself a HCG shot tomorrow night and being “turkey basted” on Friday. I am cautiously optimistic, but optimistic nonetheless, and am very hopeful that the septum roadblock is taken care of and that Baby Ricci will finally be on their way.
July has always been difficult for me as my father took his own life on July 18, 2000. I am praying and pleading with my dad to give me Baby Ricci and to end my 26 months of pain and grief with the thing I want most in the world…to be a mother. Again, thank you to my incredible friends and family for not only being my shoulder to cry on, my ear to vent to but for being my backbone and holding me up when I think the only thing I can do is fall. I wouldn’t be who I am or where I am without each of you.
Since I had done my 6th round of clomid this month, I had an ultrasound yesterday to see where my follicles were so we could see when we could do IUI. Dr. Hammoud was back in the office so I asked his opinion about having more surgery and when he looked further, he said the septum was only about .5 cm longer than the entire depth of my uterus. He thinks that if they removed any more I could have a difficult time carrying a baby to term or the uterus could tear during labor so he didn’t believe I needed more surgery and that we should proceed with IUI. This was FANTASTIC news to hear and I felt a big weight lift off my heart at the thought that we could conceive baby Ricci this week. After looking at my follicles, he found that Friday would be the optimal day to do IUI so I will be giving myself a HCG shot tomorrow night and being “turkey basted” on Friday. I am cautiously optimistic, but optimistic nonetheless, and am very hopeful that the septum roadblock is taken care of and that Baby Ricci will finally be on their way.
July has always been difficult for me as my father took his own life on July 18, 2000. I am praying and pleading with my dad to give me Baby Ricci and to end my 26 months of pain and grief with the thing I want most in the world…to be a mother. Again, thank you to my incredible friends and family for not only being my shoulder to cry on, my ear to vent to but for being my backbone and holding me up when I think the only thing I can do is fall. I wouldn’t be who I am or where I am without each of you.
3 comments:
I am sorry to hear about your dad. It hurts so much to go any where and see all the babies and pregnant ladies. There are so many days i just want to stay home I hurts to bad to leave. I have two neighbors that are pregnant just a week apart. They told me the same day. I put a smile on my face and pretended it was ok. I came home that night and had one of my break downs. When i read your blog you give me strength and hope. I do know one day we will have a baby I just never thought it would be like this.
Yay for no more surgery! and exciting to move on to the next step... Sending prayers your way!
Randomly came across this post via Google. Congrats on your little bean. I also experienced Dr. Hammoud being "right" where other docs "weren't" a few times at this same clinic. Dr. Hammoud is truly exceptionally amazing.
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