Today I should be 14 weeks and in my second trimester. It’s weird to think that almost 2 months have passed since my heart shattered and I had to say goodbye to my pregnancy and all of the hopes and dreams that came with it. I have found it’s been a strange transition to go from hopeful and trying to just waiting with a broken heart. I am having a hard time dealing with the emotions that have come with this miscarriage and hearing and seeing people reveal pregnancies that have roughly the same due date I should have had. I have turned into an ugly person and it’s not who I want to be. This whole process has become extremely draining and Facebook and my blog have exacerbated my sadness. I am having a difficult time just getting through the daily tasks without worrying about updating my blog or keeping up on emails, Facebook messages and everything else technology provides us with. In order to heal myself and get some things done that I have had on my list for months, I have decided to take a break from the social networking world. I truly appreciate all the love and support I have gained from this blog and my Facebook page, but I just need a break. I have said “I can’t do that in case” or “maybe next month” too many times and I have fallen into a funk that I can’t seem to be able to dig myself out of. I will still have the RESOLVE group going on and will be answering emails at LaurenNRicci@gmail.com but it’s not going to be at the forefront of my to-do list. I just need to get back to me and I need to get back to the “us” in my relationship because I don’t want to resent the years I spent trying. So thank you very much for listening, supporting and helping me get through this difficult journey. I hope when I do feel ready to come back I have a renewed sense of hope, or some good news to share. All my best to each of you!
XOXOX…
