A friend of mine shared this blogpost on Brave Girls Club with me and this story really resonated with me.
The story talks about the masks we wear and the signs we wish we could wear around our necks so everyone knew what trial we were currently enduring and would be a little more understanding. I know I have not been my normal self and have been much more flaky then I usually am, but it's because I am hurting. I am hurting physically and emotionally and I can barely be there enough for myself, so I haven't been able to be there for anybody else. I feel bad that I have let certain things fall through the cracks and am only able to give myself 80%, but it's because I am broken, I am hollow and I am missing a piece of myself. So...
and I really am. I wish I could be the person I have aways been but right now, I have to be selfish, I have to take care of me. So if I have not been the friend, the daughter, the wife, the listening ear, the co-worker, the volunteer, the confidant or the person I normally am, please forgive me, I am doing all I can to hold myself together...
3 comments:
Thank you for sharing this post; it is so true. I wish society would rediscover some of the kindness we've lost over the years and slow down a bit. Reminds me of one of my favorite quotes: 'Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.' It was good to meet you yesterday!
Lauren,
I am a reader of your blog and a friend of Jess Bowers. I just want to let you know you are not alone. I went through a failed IVF cycle in August and recovering from it was very, very hard. I hope everyone in your life gives you the support and love you need and that you can try again soon. Good luck to you.
I am so sorry for the pain you and your husband have been going through...my prayers are with you and please let me know if I can do anything for you!
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