I am feeling emotionally exhausted lately and I am having a hard time talking about my journey when it’s yielding the same results. I feel as though I am telling the same story with the same ending over and over again. I hate being a victim and feeling down about our situation, and lately I feel I don’t have anything positive to say, so I would rather not say anything. We are currently in the waiting period and I have no news to report so I have decided to go on hiatis from sharing our story so openly. I am ready to put our infertility at the back of my mind and focus on decorating my house, getting organized and putting more energy into my relationship, friendships and job. Infertility is a big burden to carry and the last few months I have let it break me and eat at my soul. I am a strong woman who has an incredible life with amazing friends and family and this despair and anguish is only temporary. We will have our baby one way or another and when they finally get here, it will not only be a miracle, but a long-awaited and appreciated blessing. So until I have some news to report, have gone through in-vitro or feel the overwhelming need to share something, I will be on hiatis from this blog. I will still be trying, but I think I need to go back into myself and allow this journey to be between me and the people who have been there through every emotion I have endured or who are enduring it themselves. I genuinely appreciate all the love and support this blog has brought me and I truly hope I have helped others out there deal with the emotions that come with infertility. I just need to step away, remind myself there is more to life than this trial and enjoy life instead of letting it pass me by. I still will be holding my Resolve group on August 16th, and you may contact me at Lauren.Ricci@fmr.com for further information about group. I am also happy to email and talk with people who are in the same situation as us and who understand my current emotions. I have just had too much negative feedback from people who read this blog but who haven't personally gone through infertility themselves that I no longer want to share intimate details with everyone. Thanks again and I wish you all the best of luck!
4 comments:
Good luck Lauren and Mike! I wish you both nothing but the very best!!
If anyone has said negative things they have no idea how bad it hurts to go through this!!! Following your blog has helped me get through some really rough patches. I am sorry to hear people have been negative towards you! They have no idea!!! Please stay strong and positive! Thank you for sharing your story it really has helped me so much!!!
I, too, am sorry to hear you've had negative people affecting you. I don't blame you for taking a hiatus. I'll miss hearing from you, but hopefully I'm close enough to you that I'll hear news when it's warranted. Hugs Lauren xx
Best of luck, you're in my thoughts and prayers and I'm here anytime you need to talk :)
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